The Girl Who Drove Away

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Outfit Details
Sequin top – thrifted
Jeans – DOTS
Booties – Charlotte Russe
Bracelet – gift from Ireland
Skeleton ring – Etsy

The weekend is here! Despite a rough start to some of the days, my week ended up being pretty nice, thanks in no small part to all the awesome people who reside in Gordon Wilson Hall.

Over the past few days I have…
…rapped the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air theme song with lyrics about Theatre and Dance…
…terrified a pizza lady (see Instagram for evidence)…
…rehearsed for several shows…
…and taken hundreds of dance photos, bloopers to come!

And now I am off to see a show, take headshots for friends, and rehearse for Comedy of Errors. All in all, life is quite lovely.

Hope you all are having a great Friday!

Neko

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Some days are just frustrating. I woke up in a decent mood but everything went downhill from there. Not in some devastating way, just little things. Little things that add up. I’m really hoping the rest of the week looks up!

That frustration started when I felt confident in none of my clothes this morning. I tried on outfit after outfit but nothing seemed quite right today. Even this outfit didn’t last long. I’m currently in leggings, an oversized sweater, and combat boots, because I was so done with it all. I do like the vibe of these photos though, with the buns and cat shirt I feel slightly like an animated character. A subtle nod to anime perhaps, hence the title of this post.

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Outfit Details
Cardigan – Oscar de la Renta
Cat crop top – Forever21
Bodycon skirt – DOTS
Tights – BodyWrappers
Combat boots – Charlotte Russe
Heart pin – Handmade

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Hard to Let Go

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Well, as per usual I have not been good about blogging. I have a backlog of outfit photos to show you but so little time to put together proper posts. I may have to lump several outfits together to catch up!

It’s been a rough few weeks in my mind, hence the lack of posts. Still struggling with feeling uninspired, worrying about the future, and not feeling like I’m good enough in general. Fortunately I have wonderful people in my life to help me in times like this, so I’m on the up and up for now. But I’m struggling with how hard it is to let those worries go. I have this odd fear that if I stop worrying so much I won’t be as motivated, that I’ll fall behind. Ironically it is precisely these worries that hold me back from improving. It’s a vicious cycle. It truly is difficult to just let go and trust that things will be okay even if I’m not controlling every last detail. Not being in control is about the most terrifying thing for a perfectionist like myself!

Unfortunately it’s a lesson I need to learn as there is so much that is out of the realm of my control. I can’t turn back time, I can’t predict the future, I can’t make choices for other people, hell, I don’t even have control over my own health. For those of you who don’t know, I have several chronic illnesses, namely Crohn’s disease and anemia. Even when I take my meds, eat properly, sleep and so forth, I could end up in the hospital. And that’s frustrating. I’ll leave further discussion of illness for another post (let me know if you have any questions, I would be happy to answer them) but accepting that there is only so much you can do and the rest is up to, I don’t know, luck, fate, the gods, or whatever you choose to believe, pretty much sucks.

I know learning to let go is a lifelong process. Something that takes time and patience, which I sorely lack. But letting go in baby steps is the way to go and I am slowly understanding that.

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Outfit Details
Denim dress – Target
Flower crown – DIY
Silver heart bracelet
Silver chandelier earrings – Francesca’s, gift from my sister
White infinity scarf – Charlotte Russe

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As always, thank you so much for reading my ramblings! Wishing you a wonderful week! xo

It’s been awhile…

…hasn’t it?

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It’s the time of the year where I start getting busy and tired and my blog suffers. It isn’t that I don’t have content to post, I just end up falling asleep before I have the chance to pull something together. So let me catch you up on what I have been doing the past week or so:

…house managing Crimes of the Heart. Beautiful show, interesting audience members. Two people plugged their phones into the stage to charge. Who does that?

…breaking my addiction to Diet Coke (over two weeks soda free yay) and compensating by drinking copious amounts of tea.

…reading plays, taking tests, doing homework. Oh yeah, I still have classes, whoops.

…planning my Halloween costume. Should be brilliant if it comes together!

…FALL BREAK!

…multiple doctor appointments during fall break. Anemic again, only a month after my last set of infusions, so we’re giving oral iron another try. Another post to follow on this.

…seeing art.

…celebrating my parents’ birthdays!

…and now I’m spending my last day of break (wahhh why must it end) going to Keeneland with the family, dancing, and eating cupcakes. So not all bad, yeah?

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PS More pictures from the shoot above to come.